A House For My Obsession
Shibbi-19-New York
Niam
Niam
tommoseyelashes replied to your post: lbh i’m pretty sure lilo have made out quite often and quite heavily esp. when on tourlike i’m sure there were nights where louis couldn’t sleep and he’d just creep into liam’s bunk and just lay there until liam realized he was so super lonely and he’d just kiss him till he felt better and i made myself sad D:and it’s nice and easy for a while because it’s them it’s liamandlouis they don’t have to give a name to it or try to define it because it’s just /them/ it’s comfort and safety and it was supposed to stay easy but somehow lazy comfort kisses turn frantic and /needy/ and it leaves louis gasping and gradually the air between them gets so thick he feels like they could /drown/ in it and it’s—they don’t talk about it though and maybe louis asks one night quiet and breathless into that thick air between them “we’re okay, yeah?” and liam smiles and says “of course” and even though his smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes louis wants to believe it so he does and he just buries himself into liam’s shirt and tries to breathe in /real air/ that he’s sure must exist somewhere
but their kisses have changed now and louis’ sort of not sure if they’re just doing it for comfort anymore or if he is but he puts in a little box at the back of his mind but it can’t stay shut for long not when everything’s starting to seep through the gaps and it doesn’t
it’s the last uk show and his emotions are too amplified and this time when he slips into liam’s bed there’s a shift in the air and liam must have felt it too because comfort kisses turn to frantic turn to slow and—/intent/ and then they aren’t /just/ kissing anymore and the box is wide fucking open and the contents of it all spilled out for liam to see and shit—this isn’t so easy anymore
and liam realizes that the sharp prickling edges of everything he’s been treading on for the last few weeks with louis are actually breaking skin—he’s actually starting to bleed everywhere, and his feelings are all seeping into louis’s skin whenever they touch and he wants to stop himself, puts pressure on the wound, because louis doesn’t want that, that’s not what he got into this for, that’s not what he needs and fuck all if he’s not going to give louis what he needs and /only/ what he needs because this isn’t something he’s gonna let himself be selfish about; he can’t let himself be selfish about this when louis was the one that needed him in the first place
but he can feel himself losing hold of that a little bit more every single time louis pants into his neck and rocks his hips and whimpers his name into his ear, near-silent in the back of the bus and the one time that louis lets it slip (oh fuck liam god i love you) all in a run-on, barely coherent sentence like it’s barely a second thought, he just. lets it go. and bleeds.
FUCK BOTH OF YOU I AM THROWING UP BLOOD EVERYWHERE I CAN’T BREATHE BECAUSE THERE’S TOO MUCH FUCKING LILO EVERY-FUCKING-WHERE I AM DYING DYING
a masterpost
do you guys remember when all we used were those one direction reaction gifs omg like
![CAN I BE CLOSE TO YOU? || A “Paris Pratique” playlist[LISTEN] || [READ THE FIC]
(So the fic is awesome and the girl who wrote it is so very sweet and I decided I would make something for her. I’m really proud of it and it took a lot of work, so feedback would be appreciated. Might even make more in the future.)
C’est L’amour - Rosi GolanWhen I saw him, felt the room divide into pieces. Oh, the lights danced around us just like stars in the sky. One night in Paris with a man I barely knew; I’m lost in a moment. C’est la vie, c’est la chance, c’est l’amour.
Halcyon - Ellie GouldingWe’ll take a long walk, down the alleys of these houses. And we’ll talk, see what conversation rouses when we’re alone. When we’re alone, it could be home.
Blueprint - Ally RhodesAnd we haven’t even built it yet; just a blueprint is enough, I guess. Don’t know who you are, I just know what your name is and your small talk ways. Nothing under the surface; all I know is that I wanna know more than just your skin and bones.
All This and Heaven Too - Florence and the MachineBut with all my education, I can’t seem to command it. And the words are all escaping, and coming back all damaged. And I would put them back in poetry, if I only knew how; I can’t seem to understand it.
Be Mine - Ellie Goulding & Eric HassleFor the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes. And the cold wind’s hitting my face and you’re gone. And you’re walking away, away. And I am helpless; sometimes wishing’s just no good cause you don’t see me like I wish you would.
Bitter End - Erik Hassle I knew I had what I wanted, but still I wanted more. A drink or two got me started, and now I just can’t get over you. The grass’s so green on the other side, at least it felt so at the time. All I got was a troubled mind and now I just can’t get over you.
Steal His Heart - Emily and the Woods(This. Entire. Song. It is literally the park scene. I’m so done.)Get in my boat; we’ll sail away. I’ve always been scared, scared of the sea. I’ll give you some string, you’ll find your way home, and I will be waiting when you return. I can’t steal his heart, but I can steal back mine.
Hold On - Aiden GrimshawThe night air is all that surrounds us; the moon’s glow, the lights will drown us. Hold on to your stars before they fade. / Strong faith and blind eyes.
Shampain - Marina and the DiamondsLay dagger dead inside a lonely bed, trying to hide the hole inside my head. Watching the stars slide down to reach the end. The sleep is not my friend. Drinking champagne to forget yesterday, cause I remember the way it ended the day that I walked away.
The Calendar - Panic! At the Disco(Again, the entire song.)The world may call it a second chance, but when I came back it was more the relapse. Anticipation’s on the other line and obsession called while you were out. Yeah, it called while you were out.
These Streets - BastilleThese streets are yours, you can keep them; I don’t want them. They pull me back, and I surrender to the memories I run from. Oh, we have paved these streets with moments of defeat. But even if we won’t admit it to ourselves, we’ll walk upon these streets and think of little else. So I won’t show my face here anymore; I won’t show my face here anymore.
Can’t Get You Out of My Mind - Aqualung(Jesus just this song okay this song is Louis in a nutshell help me I’m getting emotional)A kiss is not just a kiss; A smile is more than a smile. Maybe we get together, maybe forever. Maybe just for a while.
Bloom - The Paper KitesCan I take you to a morning where the fields are painted gold and the trees are filled with memories of the feelings never told? When the evening pulls the sun down, and the day is almost through, oh, the whole world it is sleeping, but my world is you.
Abide With Me - Emeli SandéAbide with me; fast falls the eventide. The darkness deepens. Lord with me abide. When other helpers fail and comforts flee, help of the helpless, O abide with me.
C’est la Mort - The Civil WarsLet’s walk down the road that has no end. Steal away where only angels tread. Heaven or hell or somewhere in between, cross your heart to take me when you leave.](http://25.media.tumblr.com/daf277cf722a120c3b9cc201707022ed/tumblr_mmcsxhdbPt1roet4po1_500.png)
harry is perfect because one second he’s like
but then a minute later he’s like
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